Life has just been a flurry lately.. sometimes flavored with snickers, sometimes dog food. One day just floats into the next. Jerry and I went fishing with Bob, Llynn and Lilly. We had a fun, relaxing time. It was free fishing day. We found a beautiful place to fish, although the only one who caught anything was Llynn. She caught 2 suckers. I haven't been sleeping well this past week. With the exception of yesterday, I got to bed by 2:00 Yes! The previous nites I was up until around 5 or 6 am. I tried to read, watch t.v., do artwork, play guitar, take a hot shower... Come to think of it now, I didn't pray. I'm not sure why now that I think of it. I must be drifting spiritually. It's funny how you don't notice that when it's happening. So tonite I'll pray before and while I'm in bed.
I had a great time at Mike, Mindy and Lukes house! Luke is just ADORABLE!
I look forward to my next visit. Hopefully soon!
Ashley and Cody were suppose to move in this past Friday. I left a few messages to find out time and so forth...no response back... I called Nella, Cody's mom and she talked to them and Ashley told her to tell me that they were not going to move in, but that she was fine and she would call me in a few days.
Another disappointment for me. Jerry seems to handle it better because he doesn't believe what she says in the first place from her previous pattern of lack of commitments. Perhaps someday my heart will stop hoping too, but for now I give it lip service. I shrug my shoulders and say "Oh well" but in my heart I feel so hurt. I'll let her know I'm hurt once again, but that just doesn't seem to matter to her right now. A simple phone call to me, even on Friday saying, "We've changed our mind, thanks for the offer" would have been better than hearing it from Nella. I know I can gleen something out of this relationship with Ashley as a learning opportunity for me. I need to take my heart back to God, and allow him to heal the wounds again. This is actually a pattern I try hard to submit to since the day of my salvation. God never said life would be easy, but he did promise to be there for us. I pray we all (family) cling to God with our joys and sorrows. Please pray me through this time with Ashley, not to mention with Josh when he gets home. I love them both so much, and find comfort in knowing that God loves them even more. I pray there struggles draw them closer to God. Our pride gets in the way so many times. We think that we know more than God does. So we go off and lead our lives apart from His Word. My struggles are so much heavier when I do that. His peace truly is a peace that passes all understanding. Even as I am typing right now I feel the Holy Spirit drawing me closer to Jesus. I think I go to him now... Love you all.
Sorry about the late posting of pics, I'll do it sometime. I tried several times this week to get into my blog with no luck, then I talked to Jer today and he gave me a different password. I know you'll love the pics.