Time to Reflect

It isn't easy for me to take time to reflect, but when I do I feel more complete. I have so many things I'd like to do. I would love to have a fully labeled home. I know that sounds silly, but these are my desires I am talking about. I would like to have consistant energy, and some routine in my life. Don't get me wrong I love the freedom I am now experiencing. I would just like to commit to a few things weekly. I'd love to join the women's group that gathers on Wed. mornings..which is tomorrow. ( I think I will finally be able to make it) On Tues mornings I'd like to start a book study on "The Shack" I really enjoyed that book and would like to go deeper in thought with others who have read it. I already belong to the praise team, although this month I have missed most of the practices. Practice is on Thurs. nites. I will soon be delving into a kids program on Wednesday nites. I am a bit nervous about this because I am fully aware of all the energy that this program takes. I just need to hand over the anxiety to God, because I am convinced he has laid this program on my heart. I would love to see my grandchildren more often..gas money seems to be problematic and my energy, and schedule. So as it stands..my Mondays, Fri, Sat, Sundays would be fully free. My commitments would be Tues, Wed, Thursdays. That sounds pretty good. Although Fridays are me and Jerry's time. I think the best time for the grandchildren would be Sunday afternoons.

Ok now that I have some of that off my mind I just want to reflect. I am so blessed, in so many ways. I am a stay at home wife. I can do whatever I want to do (within God's realm) I can take time like now to sit in my swing outside that overlooks our wooded backyard and just be. So much of time passes me by so quickly. That is why I know that I need to just have some day -dream time..or time to reflect, or just sit in the presence of Gods's holiness.

Most of my relationships are going well. I wish that I would take more time to spend with Julie, and Carol. I need them in my life. As far as my children go..we'll I have a few that I wish I was closer to, but I am accepting the distance for now. Perhaps things will change in the future as it pertains to us. I love my family dearly, and hope that all know it.

I really enjoy the beauty of nature, or a song that speaks to my heart, or the sound of a child laughing. I love it when someone reads to me. When Heidi visited last she was kind enough to read aloud to me, while we were sitting on the swing. I love hugs from my hubby, and his gentle kisses. I like to decorate..and watch HGTV. I like the feel of a gentle breeze across my face and thru my hair. I like singing songs to God . I like playing my guitar and piano. and making up poems. I like to sit by a campfire. I like massages. I like encouraging people, I like rocking a baby to sleep. I like the smell of heavily scented roses, and the smell of lilacs. I like deep discussions with my sister Caroline. I like praying with my mom. I love to have my body slatherd in lotion. I like to be around people who like to laugh and don't take life to seriously. I like noodles sauteed in butter with sugar on the top. I like watching birds, and listening to them. I like the sound of my husbands voice. I like a clean home. I like fresh cut flowers in my home. I like learning how to garden. I like snuggling with my dog Buddy. I like throwing out stuff or giving it away if I don't need it. I like garage sales. I like getting a new outfit. I like having my hair colored and cut. I like to dance.